!Happy Birthday to Me!

If it were up to me, for this year, I’d literally by-pass this day and forget it ever existed…tad melodramatic, but seriously, I am not in the mood for celebrating my life!

My friends I think are more excited than me, My family on the other hand couldn’t care less.

Errrm….I swear it should be the other way round but whatever init! C’est la vie and all that! …*rolls eyes*


Imagine this as well, I’m getting my hair done…..But Im paying for it -__- I’ll be blown if I’m gonna drop hints to my family for them to actually give me a birthday gift. That would be like too nice of them!

Maybe I’m being a bitch, yes ok maybe is a definite YES! But I feel justified dammit! Its MY day! The day that I came and “blessed” this earthly plane and that should be celebrated in its entirety for Petes sake!

OK, I officially feel like a brat and I think the best thing for me to do now, Is await the morning of my special day, put my glad rags on, and middle finger up at anyone who tries to steal my ray of sunshine on MY  BIRTHDAY 😉


*raises mug* So, here’s to the last 24 years of life. Cheers! 🙂



Hilarious! LoL

The Random Mr Jay @Iammrjay

Now lets start by saying… i didn’t write this…but oooo how upset i am that i didnt because this is some classic sh*t!!!

50 shades of Tanesha

A story for da mandem

Author: Movisuals


Read it!!! Its Jokes… Co-signed  gstar kash, Charmer-B



Lemme tell you a lil story cause im bored, I call it the reason i don’t deal with South chicks


Now there was a chick called Tanesha from Lewisham i met about 3 years ago.


I should of known everything was gonna go downhill, from time your name ends in “sha” and your from south..leave it


Anyway i was at my cousins yard in south, saw her, got her number reh teh teh


She was calm, didn’t talk ghetto, mix race, seemed kl. I waited for her bus to come and den she cut


So obviously i got yard, added…

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I sit back and and sigh what i wish was my last breath. How can life be so colourful yet feels like death.

My life so far?…….delusional?…..worrying….way too deep.
I will never understand who put us here but one things for sure, I’m not here to serve myself. Maybe I’m meant to feel this way, all the time! Maybe we’re all meant to get to that point in our lives where we’re beyond sad, contemplating and second guessing “What’s my purpose?”
Alls i know is ,Its about time I woke up, get to work and live out this thing we call destiny.

TOO many questions, not enough answers, yeah, that pisses me off but I’m not tryna fight the higher source.

Way I see it, If we we’re to know all the answers, we have no purpose here anymore. So I’m gonna wait my turn in line, awaiting my journey back home  🙂

The Title says it all 🙂

in between notes

“You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect – you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break – her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there.”

– Robert Nesta Marley

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I’m So Over You!


For the past two days all I can do is think about that agonising time when the person who you’ve spent a considerable amount of time with, tells you it’s over. In whichever way, your guy or girl does it, it’s still undoubtedly, just awful! And I feel your pain 😦

I was with the guy in question for a short time, 5 and a half months to be exact….and yes, in hindsight it was not a long-term relationship. However, feelings are feelings, and whether you’re with someone for  4 months or 14 years, the way two people feel for one another in that time is all relative, so no one can judge basically!

Anywho!…He was great, caring, had a slight funny side, cute, sweet etc.etc.etc. But!…i knew he wasn’t the one for me. It was sad, to look at such a decent man but somewhere deep inside I knew this great relationship and friendship we had would have to come to an end. I did try to fight it, pretend those feelings of uncertainty weren’t there, but your intuition is your best guide in life and I did have to take heed to that. A lot of us don’t though. If we were to actually step outside of the “bubble” we’ve literally created around us, we would see how short-sighted we can allow ourselves to become when we’re involved with someone.              Image

I cared deeply for this man, was willing to do things for him I wouldn’t usually do for any man, EVER! I cooked, cleaned, fed him, showed him affection, care and supported him through everything he did or wanted to achieve in life. And I’m not mad at all..I can honestly sit back and smile. Smile that I had the capacity in myself to care and show so much love toward another, that I wasn’t scared to open myself up again emotionally after going through a terrible break-up with my last partner, that I could laugh and enjoy life with someone again which I thought I could never do!…So yeah…I CAN sit back and smile.

When we can fully understand that in life, people are drawn to us for a reason and it is never by accident why things happen. Whether your break-up was a good one or a bad one, the most important factor is how you handle yourself and begin to start building your life independently again. For me, I have a little girl, so I had no choice but to pick myself up, dust off and get moving again! I, Like most, didn’t have time to waste on moping around or being depressed for too long. I did however allow myself time to feel sad and just reflect on what now needs to be done. That is healthy, that is necessary.

We ALL have this innate, strong power that should never be diminished by you or anyone else. Own your power, and if necessary, own your pain, as this Is what will allow you to become stronger by the day. Let go of bitterness and learn to forgive. Don’t ever let anyone have a hold on you and your spirit.


“ The Most Powerful relationship You Could Ever have is the relationship with yourself”

Great words, which came at the right time.

As I sit at my desk at work….probably having the worst day in years…I stumble across this…”Sigh”…Thank God!

La femme libre

The superior man will watch over himself when he is alone. He examines his heart that there may be nothing wrong there and that he may have no cause of dissatisfaction with himself.

-Kung Fu-tzu Confucius


Sense of loneliness hurts but we can turn it into a positive aspect in our everyday lives .

In your lonely time you can read the book you like but there was no time to read it.

It’s time to write your thoughts in your mind or even in your dairy or whatever blog.

It is a good time to develop your skills and your creativity as learning a new language or join in sessions of self-development courses.

It is your time to wake up those hobbies already has been buried in a period of study or work time constraints such as drawing or breeding pets .

It is your time to exercise daily…

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One of Many Transitions; Family Confrontation

My first blog aired on the side of being more light hearted and comical….but I wanted to get down to the real reason I started this blog and the message I want to send out to anyone/ everyone who reads it.

Recently I’ve been having one of those; transitional phases that so many of us go through at different stages of our life. Some have them far earlier on in their lives, and others reach they late 40’s early 50’s before they have any!

Its when, life gets the better of us as some may say and when we get to a place where we just stop!…and say “What on earth am I doing with myself?” or “Why am I here?” or “what the heck is wrong with me, why am I feeling like this?” blah blah blah, etc, etc! Its annoying and can seriously mess with your whole being when you feel so stuck, so annoyed by the way things are or the lack of things we feel we need or deserve but we’re just not getting there and we’re not even close! *Sigh* this is a lot!

Love messes us up, Guys, Girls or both (in some cases…no judgement…just saying)

Work, your annoying manager or whoevers senior to you, or you may be one of few who actually like your bosses and god forbid ACTUALLY laughs genuinely at their jokes! 0_0

Now…I don’t know the ins and outs of everyone’s family issues or whatever but I’m pretty sure we all go through some sort of mess with them, whether it’s just annoyance and irritation from nagging mums and dads or silly joyful happy little brothers or sisters. Whatever the case, family problems occur daily and they probably aren’t going to vanish anytime soon, BUT we, me, us, can make it 100 times better! From just changing our mind-set and understanding that we do have a choice to react and deal with things in a bad way, or a good way.


For instance!!….I recently had a falling out with my own mum, over numerous issues from both sides. I went into dealing with this knowing that I wasn’t going to disrespect the woman who deserves more than me screaming, hollering or swearing at her, instead I made a choice to hear her side, actually listen to what she had to say and keeping myself open to resolving this issue rather than closing myself off with ignorant ears which a lot of us do without even realising!

The end result, both of us understood different and valid points from each other. Yes of course my mummy and I will still bicker about silly things, but it’s the mutual understanding and respect that stops those more serious problems laying dormant in each other and allowing both of us to squash underlying REAL problems.

The next time you and your parent gets into one, stop talking for one second, release the hatred and blood boiling anger that you have for a minute…if their shouting let them shout for that period that they feel they need to, after all most parents have gone above and beyond for us, give them a few minutes to have their say. Once they do give you a chance to actually speak(which may take a few minutes of total ear-bashing) you take the lead of speaking calming, assertively, confidently and RESPECTFULLY which will allow you to get your valid point across,(and I really do hope its valid!) you’ve already listened to them, so you should have a good understanding of what the actual problem was or still is…if you don’t then in your calm respectful manner, ask them to clarify what they feel you have done wrong. Listen I know this may sound like it would never work…but what’s the worse that can happen…you may have to listen to your mum or dad, but by the end of it you will feel better knowing YOU didn’t fly off the wall and go mad! Because seriously, that does not help you and it doesn’t help them! So what’s the point?

If you can honestly get this method down to a “T” each and every time you have disagreements and fights with your family, believe it or not, it’s a transitional phase.


Upcoming blog topic…..

Well….i haven’t actually grasped the concept of relationship drama…I really wanna get onto that one soon so that will be my next one. I hope you got some sort of insightful info from reading One of many Transitions, don’t worry, we haven’t ended this topic yet, they’ll be more!


Oh….and remember…